Why is it that random things go through your head when you cant sleep? There are two main things on my mind...my new job and biggest loser....mainly biggest loser. From one day to the next its different. Most days I just have to remind myself that I joined for one reason and that seems to be enough...then the next it doesnt seem good enough..the power of 29 years of tasting and eating what I want seems to override common sense. Example of this would be ooey gooey caraml rolls from Valley Dairy..trust me when I say that they are good and oh so addicting..knowing that I cant have em cuz they literally have 1400 calories makes me want them more... I know there are healthy alternatives doesnt help either. I try to remind myslef that Im doing this for a better, longer life, to set good examples for my 6 year old, to lose the weight my body has held onto for so long. Ive tried calling in reinforcments but it nudges me in the back of my mind...just this one time and you can excercise it off...one caramel roll once in a blue moon wont hurt..yeah right...Ill have one to satisfy the carving and go off to the gym but what happens when it becomes a regular occurance??? Its not just the one craving either..it starts with one that day and progesses to more and if I cave then id be at the gym all day everyday...is this why diets fail?? why people cant quit smoking and drinking? I know that if I overcome it, it'll get easier with time..but that really doesn't help me today..lol...Ive tried the healthy alternatives..Ive tried the suggestions...try eating a piece of gum since it tricks the brain, drinking tons of water to remain full or half glass of skim milk...I ate a whole thing of celery the other day trying to make myself full and then working out for an hour that day to take my mind off them...it should have gotten easier now that I dont work there and have the temptation but I think Ive gone mad...I had a dream today while resting with my daughter about scarfing down the sticky mess of a caramel roll and woke up literally drooling...so the pay off is rewarding I know but tell that to my tummy that's trying to override the brain....
Sorry bout the ramble, its just that I cant sleep and had to write it down to get it out of my head(fingers crossed)...it amazes me what random things will go through your head when you are tossing for an hour or more trying to fall a sleep...logic's there but that doesn't make it easier on my tummy..lol.
Sleep sweet all,
Amanda W.
Orange Team
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Reality!! It's truly why our society has a problem with obesity. Takes so good, but we can't stop. Eating can be an addiction, just like smoking and drinking. Beating those cravings, and taking control of those portions and indulgences...it can truly be overwhelming. Keep working hard, and you are right, your work will be more rewarding than you realize!
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